It's amazing how quickly my heart can be swayed one way or another. Today is Wednesday. It is the one day a week I work.
Last year I gave my resignation decision about this time (I have tenure so I was able to take a year off with my job being garanteed for the following year). Everyone knew I was to take this current teaching year off. Well...
It's now a year later and it's time to make the MAJOR decision of should I come back or not?!
Who knew how hard this decision would be?
When home I have no doubt whatsoever that I'm where I need to be and doing exactly what I need to be doing. When at school it is so easy to be swayed with the direction of: "you should really go back."
Today was the kicker: first thing this morning I was pulled into the office to discuss what I should do next year. How I've been missed, how certain kids would really benefit from my being their teacher, etc., etc. I went in confidently believing that I'm RIGHT where I need to be; home with Nash. I left feeling the pressure of "maybe you should go back."
Needless to say, I now have a huge headache and no idea what the right answer is or if there really is a right or wrong answer in this decision.
Prayer -- that's what I'll spend the next several days doing. Praying about where I need to be, not for my own sake but for the sake of my family and most importantly the sake of being where God wants me to be.
I love my life -- I just don't know if I love making the major decisions that come alongside....